KaiEn's shepherding.

Yo.

Hai. Realised that recently i had became a very very good actor. An actor who hides his emotions. Its not that im not myself, but i have simply changed to hide my emotions. I guess u really need to know me really really well then u will see the something wrong in me bah. Haiz. In my heart, i do feel tired and weary. I really feel that its really time for me to rest ler. To sit down and to really evaluate myself and my relation with God.

I cant go on walking blindly without looking at where im going. I may look like im walking right with God, but am i? I don't know. Most of the times, i just give the best. Seek God, do my best - Am i doing enough of this? Its one very very valuable lesson i have learnt in my walk with God. My human method is not enough. Seeking God and walking right with him is the Main. Fulfillment of the great commission can't be my only goal. More importantly is that my relationship with Jesus is strong. Fulfillment of the great commission is just what i would do because of his love for me.

The truth is, i am VERY VERY STRESSED about this ESS. KaiEn need not have to reminded us, the truth is, i saw the importance of it long ago. After ESS, whats coming up? Exams, projects, SC projects, NPCC projects and lots lots more. And imagine this, i have to balance all these with my Ministry. Ms Yeong told me about balancing ministry, but is it as easy as it is said? So this ESS is really really important. Its the last lap ler. We really need to cry out to God for help now. Jurong IS TO BE COMPLETED!

Okaes... maybe im going far too long about this. So ok. i go ler.. Byezz